How I feel about being weird and pressured

Hello people, so yes I am blogging about my feelings again, pouring out my edited thoughts because apparently it's suppose to healthy, I hear or annoying.

Lately, I feel like everyone thinks I'm weird. Weird in a negative light. And for some reason, it makes me more agitated.  But to more honest, it because of a boy. You see, people, I told you what love can do to you, it really messes you up. And make you so angry, that you want to rip their heart out to maybe feel something.

Now, I don't have many friends. But when I do, I got pretty darn good ones, that's because they accept me for who I am even I do things that are sometimes out of norm or a "one person fandom" as they say.

 If I decide to boil my teeth, they could say I'm weird but in the end of the day, they're still good friends of mine.  Yes , I boiled my extracted teeth to destroy, obliterate, vanquish , wipe out , *insert other pompous synonyms* any bacteria off my teeth to make into a necklace.

Why I do this, am I insane, you ask.

I wanted to make a tooth necklace because I was inspired to do so. But unfortunately, I'm not allowed to use a driller to make a hole, so I might have to think of other ways to make it into a necklace.

check out my teeth

I can't explain why I want to make a necklace out of my teeth without going into a long transmission, it's like asking why do you takes selfies of yourself or why do post tons of delicious looking food before commencing chow-down?

Anyway, this post is really incoherent just like my addled mind.

Half the time, I say words with no meaning. But it makes me happy and smile for some reason. 

I wish I could be happy person forever, but that would suck because that would be boring and put a massive block on inspiration. 

Back to my feelings, I feel so pressured by people sometimes, mainly by peers and adults. I just finished my exams and I'm thinking back, did I study enough to get an A, did I do better than my friends, can this make my parent feel less shit about their daughter who didn't live out their expectations like other children? 

What is with parents comparing children? Every time my parents talk to other married couple with children, the inevitable topic that pops up is about their children. 

"Oh, my daughter got a scholarship and is off to UK to pursue a degree in medicine, what did your daughter accomplish?" says Mrs.Show off pompous ass. 

And I kid you not, mostly  Chinese mothers talk about this kind of things, it's their past time.Now, I go to church and sit down with the mothers of the church and almost every time, they're always comparing about their children. And all of them are housewives, a real stereotype. Asian and women. 

Why do parents do that? I get their your progeny is your legacy and everything, but doesn't that put tons of pressure on your kid to maintain that status ? Is it to make you look good or make you feel a lot better about yourself than others? Can you not revel in your child's success by showing off to others and make other children feel as if they are incompetent? 

Some people don't understand humility until something becomes a turning point for them.

I sound like I hate myself . I know a lot of about self-loathing, it can get pretty annoying to other people  if you post it as a status on facebook and these people can make you feel a lot of worse about yourself. 

Which is why, blogging is a better outlet, at least when people read it, it's at their own risk and you couldn't care less about the mockery you get. 

Haters gonna hate. 

Nevertheless, I always get over this kind of hate by the blogging it out.  I think it's good to let it out once in a while rather than have it bottled in inside you and kills you slowly. 

I think I had enough of venting out my frustrations, I feel a little better. Well, I guess watching My Little Pony is also helpful in one way.
Sorry this is a long post but this is Obie, signing off. POOF.

Cartoons make me young

So yes I have been M.I.A from blogging but I'm here now but it's not you care anyway. Bah humbug!

Anyway, to be honest, I was just preparing myself for exams and test and assignments and those college requirements and yada yada yada. I realised that you would always have to race against time to complete the questions in exams. But I won't bore you with college stuff.. 

Anyway, as the title says, cartoons freaking makes me happy! I get addicted to watching cartoons and anime that it makes me wanna freaking draw kunai(s) and stab someone I just hate in my sketch book. Doesn't make sense, does it and what does cartoons have to do with being young? It's an overwhelming emotion and emotions are immune to logic. 

POWERPUFF GIRLS

When I was 6, my favourite cartoon that I would always watch was the Powerpuff Girls(PPG). I was obsessed with PPG. I bought all sorts of merchandise of PPG. My favourite powerpuff was Bubbles so a lot of the merchandise I bought were Bubbles stuff. 

Incidentally, I was googling powerpuff girls for nostalgia sake. And look what I stumble upon; ta da da da 

New Powerpuff Girls 2013! Yes going to be released this year! One of best cartoons on Cartoon Network is coming back with a whole new look. They loook....edgy but it doesn't matter. I always give something a chance even they are really different. Did I mention that I loved the Powerpuff Girls that it was my object of unsurpassed worship? I did. Hehe....Cartoon loyalty. I think I might like the new look. Don't know about the voice actors but I know Tara Strong is still voicing Bubbles. If you don't know who is Tara Strong, well I'm pretty sure you don't read the credits fast enough or google cartoons on Wikipedia. Some of characters she voices are
Ben Tennyson (Ben 10) , Timmy Turner (Fairly Oddparents) , Raven (Teen Titans) , Omi (Xiaolin Showdown) and of course Twilight Sparkle (My little Pony)

It's a hobby if you're wondering.

Okay, in the past few years , Cartoon Network to me was sorta unintriguing mainly because the cartoons that aired were I hate to say it but mediocre. The only exception was Adventure Time. I honestly did not enjoy watching other adaptions of Ben 10 (original series) .
Oh, don't get started on Disney. As a kid, I thought Disney rocked but now ...

Disney is meant for kids and only kids that could be influenced by the EVIL!!! Disney's got some very interesting subliminal messages or dirty jokes.

haha, you got a dirty mind

TEEN TITANS GO!

So let's continue on cartoons. Anyone watches the Teen Titans, you know the awesome TV series with Robin, Starfire, Raven , Cyborg and Beast Boy.

I loved that show , it had superheroes ,drama and humour. Definitely one of my all time favourites. So being a fan of Teen Titans, I stumble upon google search entries and whaddya know ...I found "Teen Titans GO!"

Teen Titans GO! is more comedic take than the original Teen Titans Tv series. The animation is chibi- styled. I watched all the Teen Titans shorts and I say, it is futile to resist the cuteness. It's going to air very soon maybe somewhere in a couple months. Pretty psyched about it.

So now let's talk about Batman, why Batman? Well I talked about Robin, so it would make sense to talk about Batman. I freaking love Batman but I didn't watch the live action movie. So yes whenever people asked "Have you seen The Dark Knight?" and I'll say no and they ask why and I say I'm dirt poor, jeez. Just Kidding.

I was always more into the Batman cartoons than the live action ones. I think I watched almost all the Batman animated movies and I enjoy watching them except the one which was based on Japanese art style in other words anime or Batanime. I love anime but Batman + anime do not work out. And I seriously watch through the entire movie and I get so irked when I see Batman/Bruce Wayne like this

or this

Bruce Wayne should not look like a pretty boy

The movie had different segments which features different animation style, some were great but some were like the above; ain't that great. But regardless of what animation they used, the story wasn't so great either that it doesn't make me want to remember it.

Overall , the movie was bearable but wasn't great not the best for me.

The best Batman film has got to be Batman: Under the Red Hood. The best movie everrrrr and has become my all time favourite movie. A definite must watch for Batman fans . 

I would like to write so much about Jason Todd (the second Robin) but maybe next time.

BEWARE THE BATMAN

Anyway, something else related to Batman which I was gonna say till I drifted off. Beware the Batman! Yup another Batman animated series which will be aired in 2013.

 Kinda sharp looking. Is that Nightwing or Katana at the left? and Alfred gun- totting? Hmm...seems interesting. Will still give a try though...I mean it's freaking Batman. Will it be good, I don't know? When it airs , everyone will be the judge.

So let's go to something not DC related, no not Marvel.

XIAOLIN CHRONICLES formerly known as XIAOLIN SHOWDOWN.

Ever watched Xiaolin Showdown? If you have, then you'll be happy to know that Xiaolin Showdown is coming back except that it's called Xiaolin Chronicles now and some of the voice actors are not the same due to a Canadian law which I think you should go check it out yourself because "Canadian law" is  a really interesting term,huh? It will also air in 2013.

Pretty cool cartoons huh for 2013, but seems like every cartoon have new transitions but still are pretty cool.

Oh before I end, LEGEND OF KORRA!!!!!

I love that show to the max. One of the best shows ever. Don't care whether you call it anime or cartoon because it's not made by Japanese hence some may think Legend of Korra doesn't deserve to be categorise as anime but whatever it's awesome.

The air date is not confirmed as far as I know. After the last episode of the " first book," I kept googling for the next season/book. And so far I only know that the next book is called Spirits and more characters will be introduced and hopefully more of Commander Bumi, yay because you know the he's a fan favourite eventhough he only got 5 seconds of screen time.

So that's about it. I realised that post isn't meant for people who don't watch cartoon so you may find it incredibly dull. Well, I guess you should try watching more cartoons so you'll feel younger. Life is short pal or     just ridiculously long that it's so incredibly boring to sit and cry over dookie that happen or waiting for more dookie to happen. Life is complicated, but luckily there are things that make life bearable in this case; cartoons. Cartoons are great , definitely better than drugs and herpes. I could list a lot of benefits from watching cartoons but nah, you'll figure it out yourselves.

So watch cartoons, it makes your life a lot more bearable. You can make a difference by reducing the rate of
drunk gonorrhea skanks who are also crack heads.

Have a nice day and please watch this video of Stormtrooper who hit his head because it's hilarrriousss..

Growing up sucks!

What is up, my cabbages? It has been a while. Well, yay I'm back and feeling sad. :( Wehh...
Depression is a seriously illness. Luckily, I don't have it. Sadness and depression are not exactly the same thing. How is it different? I don't know, ask your psychologist.

Anyway, it's a new year and hooray. I'm 18...WEHHH. That doesn't mean it's a good thing. You're legitimately a freaking adult, GROWN UP meaning you are granted with a lot freedom. WRONG! It's not freedom , it's free-DOOM.. You're forgetting I still live under my parents' house. Although it's just more likely your parents will allow certain things permissible but if you make them mad in anyway, then you're screwed pal. Say hello to jail time and death sentences if you committed a crime too because you are an adult. So if you groped a boob be it man's or woman's, that's sexual harassment and you can go to jail, jerk.

You may think "hey, you can do whatever you want now, you don't have to listen to your parents all the time". Yea, if you're want to end like a crackhead or a drunk hobo on the street. Seriously, alcohol is bad for you kids. I would never understand why the heck anyone would want to get wasted and fat. Yes, alcohol does make you fat. Go google that.

It isn't fun, it's stupid. But it's funny when someone else get wasted, and gets hurt in the process and we can go" AHAHAHAHA, man he's so drunk." It's so funny when you get hurt because of your own stupidity. I'm a terrible person.

What are the banes of being old? You have to start thinking like an adult and think about your career and think of ways of being productive. That's what your parents and society wants anyway. For me, I want to old enough to buy and play Mortal Kombat and watch all the Fatalities although I did that before I was 18. Mortal Kombat 9 is sweet!!!

I always thought, when I'm 18, I'm gonna do this and do that, move out and do what most adult do. Well it's not 90210. My life isn't about waking up and brushing my teeth with Jack Daniels and go partying and waking up with a garbage bag on my head like Kesha.


Anyway, let's me talk about something this year. I started college. Yay...nope, not really too happy.I still want to be kid and be a lazy bon bon and watch cartoons. For the first few days of college, I was like "Yay, baby college life." But then you're like "Oh, it's still kinda like school." Maybe that's just for me. .. For me, I'm starting relate it to school because of the classes and homework and assignments and yadayadayada. Here's the worst thing, I still have to wake up early in the morning like 6am,(just like secondary school) get dressed and get out of the house at 6.30am because there's gonna be traffic all the way to college and you have to make it on time for class or you'll get in trouble. And college isn't like school where you finish at 1.05pm, college freaking ends at 4.30pm. When I get home, I have to do my homework whenever there is homework and then sleep.It's just like school.


They say working life is just the same.
If this is just college, then working life must be a she-K9.(try to google that, you'll get what i mean.)

 Oh,and I would have to act MATURE about it and start being an adult. *SARCASM*. Nah, I'm gonna continue watching cartoons and play video games. TAKE THAT, ADULTHOOD.

Anyway,on to the topic on the "journey to college", early in the morning I get up and get ready to get out of the house and my dad drives us to the train station just to get to college. And after taking the train, I have to pass  through an alley or maybe underground passage. At that alley, I encountered a lot of weirdos trying to get  my attention or buy their stuff. And it's bloody annoying. Normally, I get approached by taxi drivers and get
called as "adik" or "ah moi" meaning kid and miss respectively. I get irritated by taxi drivers or people on the street in general because they look at me like an easy target or someone easily to be fooled and try to pursue me to ride their taxis or buy their dookie.


As for those weirdos who try to sell you stuff , it's obviously a scam, here's an advice, don't ever freaking look at them or talk to them.. Last week, a girl and boy approached me when I was in a crowd of adults at a pedestrian bridge in broad daylight. The girl called me "sister" to get my attention and I turned. Big mistake. She started talking but I wasn't listening. I couldn't tell whether she was speaking English or Chinese because suddenly my mind was drifted off somewhere. Whatever language she spoke in, I wasn't paying any attention and just left but she freaking pursued me but luckily my mum was nearby and "saved" me. That was weird, okay. I hate people I don't know suddenly come up to me.But those two people didn't look like average weirdos they look like normal Chinese students from a Chinese school. Guess, these weirdos have all sorts of different looks, huh.

They just approached me, specifically me...why? There's a bunch of people in front of me and behind me. They stood there while other people were passing them  but when they saw me, they just walk up to me and asked me a question.
There's no denying I kinda have the easy target look and I'm annoyed that most weirdos would depict me like that. And because that I'm a girl, it's easier.
I have to urge to freaking kick them in the balls whenever strangers come up and ask me questions.

Paranoid, much?
Hey I don't want to freaking get kidnapped, raped, or get chopped up into pieces and be thrown into a refrigerator, okay. I read the newspaper and watch Taken to know that the people are freaking evil. You can't be naive if someone approaches you not matter how innocent they look and asked you to enter a contest , or do a survey or lend them your phone because they want to make a phone call.

Thing about these weirdos on the street is that they aren't dumb. I'm pretty sure they learnt hypnotism , eye contact and whatever persuasive method to get your attention and then when they got you in their trap, you're dead -figuratively and literally.

BE WARY OF PEOPLE IN WHITE VANS.

Anyway, I think I'll wrapped up for today and wallow in mud. Maybe next post, if I'm ever angry or feel like ranting about stuff I know people are gonna scrutinized me for but i don't give a dookie, I'll talk about college life and why adulthood continues to suck.

Have a nice day. Broken pinky out.

Oh the world didn't end, in YO' FACES MAYANS!